" i am your butter and your bread, the voice that's in your head. i'll take you in and fill you up, with a lack of being fed. "

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

american psycho

written monday, day one:
day one of the detox is going well!
have all my food planned out and it's under 400 cals! (well minus today, monday).. damn boyfriend's mum). i feel good. about to work out now too, hopefully burn a minimum of 500 cals.. i feel good about this. and i don't have to hide anything; throw out food, lie about eating, face the weird looks.. well i'll still get weird looks for doing a 'soup detox' but who cares. so this is making my life so much easier.. hopefully i can get away with doing a soup detox for five days once a month at least.. the rest of the days, well i'll figure something out. lying and throwing out food makes me feel so bad, but it has to be done sometimes.. i wish it didn't, so i'll figure something out for the rest of the days.. but i'm excited to see how this detox works out for me. hope my body doesn't go into 'starvation mode', i mean it's only five days and it's nearly 400 cals a day, it should be fine. i'll keep tabs on this though. people think i'm crazy for doing this, they think it's stupid or that i'm stupid for doing it. well i'm not. i like it. and if i feel good that's all that matters.
time to hit the elliptical! day one almost over.

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